Welcome to my Blog. I'm a practising member of SGI-UK a lay buddhist organisation practising the Buddhism of Nichiren Daishonin. It is often described as a practise of Active Humanism which I think reflects it perfectly. The basic practise is the chanting of 'Nam Myoho Renge Kyo' on a daily basis and putting the practise into use in our daily lives thereby making this a practical rather than esoteric form of Buddhism. For more information, please follow the Buddhist links on the right of this page

“Prayer is the courage to persevere. It is the struggle to overcome our own weakness and lack of confidence in ourselves. It is the act of impressing in the very depths of our being the conviction that we can change the situation without fail. Prayer is the way to destroy all fear. It is the way to banish sorrow, the way to light a torch of hope. It is the revolution that rewrites the scenario of our destiny... Believe in yourself! Don't sell yourself short! Devaluing yourself is contrary to Buddhism, because it denigrates the Buddha state of being within you.”.
Daisaku Ikeda.

Turkey and Tantrums !!

Well, thank f@#k that's all over for another year !!

I'd hoped and perhaps naively expected that this Xmas wouldn't be tooooo bad and up until Boxing Day night it was tolerable ... albeit dull and waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too hot at my Sisters .. Then Boxing Day came and with it came my 14 1/2 year old neice's tantrums .. big time !!!! Jeeze .. I'm pleased I don't have kids I can tell you !!

Finally got home yesterday afternnon. I'd only been gone 2 and a bit days but it felt like a life sentence !!! I usually enjot the bit between Xmas and New Year but got to say that I'm feeling a bit negative at the moment on all fronts really. Money I'd expected to come in hasn't materialised and to top it all, Orange took my payment out twice which means I'm really going to struggle to pay my rent in a few days time. On top of that, I feel a bit under the weather .. I've had a bad back/hip for a couple of weeks and though it's eased, it's still there ... I slept like crap last night too and all that's on top of eating way too many sweet things that make me feel like crap ... so healthy food for a few days and lots of water to flush it out my system I think !!

In some ways, I think this is also down to setting some determinations about three months ago to happen by the end of the year .. two key ones being to be financially secure .. well, see above re that !! The other was to be in a relationship .... mmmm long way off that one !!! All that was combined with a determination to do 75mins chanting each day which I was doing fine at until I had a temporary dip in my practise .... This has left me with 17 hours to do in 4 days if I'm to do it .. and I've done about 45 mins so far so I'm a long way behind .... Guess I know what I'll be doing New Years eve !!!!

So, with the spirit of 'never giving up until the end', I'm going to try to hit my chanting target and hopefully something will change on other fronts .... I'll keep you posted !!!
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