Welcome to my Blog. I'm a practising member of SGI-UK a lay buddhist organisation practising the Buddhism of Nichiren Daishonin. It is often described as a practise of Active Humanism which I think reflects it perfectly. The basic practise is the chanting of 'Nam Myoho Renge Kyo' on a daily basis and putting the practise into use in our daily lives thereby making this a practical rather than esoteric form of Buddhism. For more information, please follow the Buddhist links on the right of this page


“Prayer is the courage to persevere. It is the struggle to overcome our own weakness and lack of confidence in ourselves. It is the act of impressing in the very depths of our being the conviction that we can change the situation without fail. Prayer is the way to destroy all fear. It is the way to banish sorrow, the way to light a torch of hope. It is the revolution that rewrites the scenario of our destiny... Believe in yourself! Don't sell yourself short! Devaluing yourself is contrary to Buddhism, because it denigrates the Buddha state of being within you.”.
Daisaku Ikeda.

Done and Dusted

All over again for another year .. phew .. !!
Have to say that it wasn't as bad as the previous year though that had a lot to do with not doing the mum/sister/neice visit until after Xmas and then only for a couple of days. That said, how long can you play Millionaire and Coronation Street Games for god's sake .. it's like having your soul sucked !!
Interesting Xmas for deaths too .. the legend James Brown .. sad, Saddam Hussein .. not a good guy by any stretch but an eye for an eye ... don't think so .... and of course, we mustn't forget Charlie Drake .. bless him :)
Soon be time to make those new years resolutions or Determinations as we Buddhists call them ... more on that another day.
I did come across a bit by Daisaku Ikeda the other day which I thought was a great motivator so I think I'll get a frame and do a nice version but here it is for now .... will post more stuff later:
Our innermost determination can move the universe. Because cause and effect are simultaneous, all results are encompassed in our present resolve. Determination is not just words. True determination contains earnest prayer and brims with concentrated energy. It gives rise to wholehearted action and leads without fail to splendid victory.

Escape from Sado

Wahay ... I've made a decision this year not to do the Xmas visiting thing and am now going over on the 27th for a couple of days so hopefully all will be a bit calmer by then !! Which means a couple of peaceful TV days and my own choice of Xmas dinner .. not a big fan of th etraditional one so I've gone for parmesan encrusted sea bass ,colcannon and veg with a rich choccy pud for afters mmmmmm
Soon be time to sort a few new years determinations out and have a few in mind. Find a piece from Ikeda's early diaries and might adapt it to my own use a bit .. so something like ...:
  1. Study Buddhism and increase the strength of my chanting
  2. Cut down on expenses and work harderr to earn more
  3. Live productively
  4. Look after my health (not too bad at that generally anyway)
  5. effort/patience/confidence/conviction/faith

So that's it at the moment .. bit of a mix of Ikeda and me and maybe will alter it but a good base to start from.

Party night tonight after going to the Mayfair last night which , as always. was excellent and always incredible to see the eating machine that is Andy ... no idea how he does it ... he's like the Duracell rabbitt when there's food in front of him !!

My own personal Sado

Damp and foggy today and have to say that reflects my mood somewhat.
Xmas is looming along with the trip to the relatives. Hopefully this year my 13 year old neice won't be the brat from hell that she was last year !! And to top everything off, the trains are now on strike on Xmas eve so I will have to go a day early and be there an extra day .. oh joy !!!
But I guess there isn't much I can do apart from suffer it as gracefully as I can do. I know, as a Buddhist, I should use it as a challenge to break through but each year it just makes me feel more and more like locking myself away in a darkened room with a packet of razor blades and the collected works of Leonard Cohen.
But .. I guess there is an upside .. I do usually feel a lot more alive once I;ve got back to Nottingham and make promises to do more in the new year (though that often fades) ... Anyway ... I'll be going well armed this year with books, portable DVD player and MP3 player so at least I should be able to blot out some of their usual TV .. which will be something along the lines of Coronation st, emmerdale, Xmas Millionaire, queens speech etc etc .. something akin to having your soul sucked out !!!
Anyway .... now I have to go early, I'm all over the place with things to do .. and I really want to do loads of chanting before I go so best get on with it ... hopefully might blog from my sisters ... if I haven't slipped into a coma !!!

...... and Bheki Mseleku

Well .. it's been a busy week work wise and have a meeting this afternoon (oops that's been put back to Monday now too .. just had a phone call !) and one on Monday which I hope will lead to more work. Also had a couple of Buddhist meetings and one (possibly a second today) home visits too .. aren't I a good little Buddhist lol. Really REALLY didn't want to do a home visit but did one on Monday and much to my surprise, I actually enjoyed it so more on the way I guess.

Typed up some notes from the Study last Friday and have posted them below if anyone is interested.

Went to the Bonington theatre in Arnold again last night for the jazz. There had been some doubt, due to health, as to whether Bheki Mseleku would be playing but thankfully he did. Having said that, if he hadn't turned up, I wouldn't have been dissapointed to hear 2 sets by the John Donaldson trio who were superb. BUT .. it has to be said that the Bheki Mseleku quintet were a class above most things I've seen .. it really was like seeing a living legend .. a live Thelonious Monk/Bill Evans ... absolutely excellent .. no other words for it really !

Hopefully should have a photo or two of the gig to post shortly.

And here's the study notes as promised >>>

Study Notes – From December 1st 2006


The purpose of study is not an intellectual pursuit but for bringing us back to chant to the Gohonzon to raise our life state. Study also leads to perseverance .. as Nichiren says “To accept is easy; to continue is difficult. But Buddhahood lies in continuing faith”.

Whatever situation we find ourselves in, chant with the determination that ‘I Will Win’

We don’t all see the world in the same way, but see it through whatever life state we have. By chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo, we see the world through our Buddhahood.

There is no such thing as individual types of Karma .. eg money karma, relationship karma. If we strengthen our faith and our practise, ALL karma changes.

A Buddha has no fear and trusts 100% in their Buddhahood. We can face all our difficulties and still be happy.

Daimoku, Difficulties and the effort to overcome difficulties are the way of attaining Buddhahood.

Human Revolution doesn’t mean simply to suffer. We sometimes say things like ‘I really did my human revolution at work the other day’ when what we really mean is that we suffered because of something/someone. This is NOT Human Revolution. Human revolution means to transform and change through the suffering and move our lives forward.

When we change, the world also changes. Everything starts with Inner Transformation – changing our hearts and our minds.

Life state is the key – Raise it by chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo.

3 week catch up

Well .. it's been a while so once again .. a bit of a catch up ... So what's happened .. well .. as usual nothing too exciting .. well more or less anyway !

Work wise things have picked up reasonably significantly which is good .. so just need to make sure that I don't rest back on my laurels which is always tempting.

Have been to two meetings at Taplow Court, our Buddhist centre as I'm now a vice district leader ... Technically shouldn't have gone to the second one as it was for chapter and HQ leaders but as I had to hang around a few hours for a lift back, I managed to blag my way into it which was good, though the lectures were pretty much the same at both but very inspiring anyway. I've posted relevant bits of notes I took at the end.

Also, on the second one, I received my Omamori gohonzon which is a mini one used for taking on home visits etc which I did one tonight .. my first .. ta da .... :-)

Jazz has been a bit iffy the last few weeks though as I really didn't enjoy the Works and missed Inner Noise as I was ill .. back to normal this week hopefully though. Had an e-mail from a Jazz Musician too Renato D'aiello .. turns out he's just started chanting too ... and might want me to re-design his web site .. cool.

mmm Think that's it .. sure we've managed at least one Mayfair meal in the last few weeks and I'm sure it was good .. just can't remember so it must have been a good night :-)

Notes from the meetings follow:

2007 designated the Year of Victory and Advance

A strong morning gongyo signals the start of a strong day

Seek the mentor/disciple relationship in our own way. This relationship created the initial cause for the formation of SGI and the progress to where we are today (Makaguchi/Toda/Ikeda). Each of us has this very same spirit within us.

Only inner transformation of ordinary people can transform the world.


Shakabuku is a practise to respect others life potential. When we respect others, respect responds back. Shakabuku means overcoming our small ego to talk to others about Buddhism.

'Year of Victory and Advance'
Advance means to do our Human Revolution and break through our fundamental darkness
Vistory is the important concept of win or lose.

Peace will be established only by study, dialogue and action

Courage brings forth our true compassion – We strengthen our courage by chanting in front of the Gohonzon

There is no separation between helping ourselves and helping others.

Realising the ‘power’ of our own lives is the way to transform the lives of others too.

At its essence, each day we seek to deepen our understanding of our Buddhahood and challenge ourselves to help others reveal their own Buddhahood.

By practising this Buddhism, we change our own lives and thereby change society.

Real happiness is not the absence of problems but the absolute conviction that any problem can be resolved.


To accept is easy – to continue is difficult but Buddhahood lies in the continuing.

Daimoku is very powerful – we need to understand and trust how powerful it is in our lives.

A joyful practise (ie not begrudging) will enable us to break through obstacles, but true joy can’t be generated intellectually. True joy lies in our own Human Revolution to reveal our Buddhahood and to see the Buddhahood in others.
















Ikeda New Century Hall - Taplow Court

Shop With Me

Ok .. once again .. apologies for not blogging .. I will catch up soon.

In the meantime, I've discovered Amazons Astores where you can set up your own stores and get paid a small fee for each book sold through your astore. So if you want to have a look at my somewhat ecletic bookshop .. feel free to buy too :-)

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Katchup/Kunishima

Ok ... update time I guess ... so where was I ? .. Oh yes last post 22nd mmmm what's happened since ?

Well ..first of all I missed the Eric Taylor gig that I'd been looking forward to .. partly because no one else wanted to go and partly because I was knackered and seem to be out most evening at the moment .. oh well .. next year I guess ! The next night was out at the jazz watching Clark Tracey. Good gig though for me, somewhat dissapointing as Zoe Rahman had double booked so Steve Melling stood in on piano which was OK but much prefer her style .. less busy that Mellings but still a decent gig.

Then a Buddha day on the 28th when we had our HQ day which was pretty good on the whole .. especially enjoyed the lecture by Yasu Hirayama who I've heard a couple of times before and always find inspiring.












Unfortunately that evening I sensed a sore throat and that just developed into full blown 'man flu' which meant that, well, I did sod all for about three days though it did give me a good excuse to watch an awful lot of daytime TV from under the duvet .. even though the worst day co-incided with my birthday .. shame really as there's less of those left :)

Just about recovered in time for a Mayfair meal on the Wednesday though which was very good ... and especially spicy which suited me as my taste buds had gone a bit .

Then last night was another Jazz night .. with Taeko Kunishima. Have to say it was a frustrating gig as she was excellent but the first set had her piano so low in teh mix it got lost. Also a japanese flute doesn't make a very good lead instrument I'm afraid as it's not variable enough .. and the rythm, section were .. let's say mediocre to be kind. Thankfully, teh second set saw her piano a lot louder and that combined with a couple of Whiskys did make things much better .. just hope she gets invited back with a better band. You can here some of her music at http://www.taeko.co.uk/music.html or http://www.myspace.com/taekokunishimaquartet

And that's me up to date. Going to Taplow Court tomorrow for the district leaders assembly meeting so more on that later.

Somewhat more constructive

Well .. after yesterday's poor effort where the most constructive thing I did was to delete 900 text messages from my phone (that was fun !); Today has so far been reasonably constructive. Woke up at 8am and after a quick cuppa, did an hours chanting this morning which was good .. and still only 10am when I'd normally be thinking of dragging myself out of bed for my first cuppa. After that, I did a fairly quick tidy and clean of the flat .. looking better now .. more relaxing.

Also .. did some work .. yes .. on a Sunday !. One good thing about not having any money come in is that it's spurred me to start 2 or 3 new business ventures .. nothing huge but will hopefully bring a few thousand a year in .... I need to just get ahead a bit .. so that's the work plan for the week really .. get some of these up and running. Also went for a swim .. so quite a full Sunday morning for me !

And that's it so far .. time for brunch now and yes I am still listening to the excellent Julia Biel CD

Such a rubbish day

And I'm gonna spend it indoors !

Weird day ... after last nights Discussion meeting, I fancied a bit of a lie in the morning .. The plan being to start earlier in the week and then catch up at weekends. Unfortunately, I woke up about 7am .. wide awake ! I made a valiant attempt to watch a DVD in bed but got bored so I was up by 8 .. most irritating .. especially as I've agreed to do Gongyo again tomorrow at 9am so no lie in there either.

Thought I'd use the time to get on and do some work but that has only happened in a minor way really .. also went to the shops but the weather is weird .. hot one minute and raining the next .. and it's November !!

Anyway ... decided to write the day off really ... so I'm going to try to do a bit mor ework then watch the Guns of Navvarone on TV with a cuppa .. bit of a TV night ahead I suspect !!

B 'ell (That's Biel)

Well after the worry and stress of where the hell is my rent coming from .. might have just got a bit of work .. not enough but it's a start.

Anyway ... it was nice to go to the Jazz in the evening and chill with some whisky and an excellent gig. To be honest, I'd hoped it would be good but there were little doubts going through my head whether it might venture into Sade territory .. thankfully it didn't ... Julia Biel has got an excellent voice .. I'd describe it as 'Dusty' I guess .. some well written songs and backed by some great musicians .. especially Jonny Phillips on Guitar .. nice to hear some thoughtful Jazz guitar instead of the 'showy' variety. Also excellent Cello and Bass ... Trumpet and Drums were pretty decent too .. though as an ex drummer, it was a shame Seb Rochford wasn't playing as whilst the drummer was pretty good he seemed a little cautious as I suspect he'd been drafted in at the last minute ... but that's nit picking .. excellent gig ... so good I bought her CD ... and got it signed .. how sad is that at my age lol

Also, for a change, I managed to go to bed without falling asleep on the sofa until 4am as I usually do ... must have taken it steadier last night :-)

Oh well .. onwards with the day do my morning Gongyo and Daimoku (Buddhist chanting stuff) and see if I can do something towards scraping rent together and there's a Buddhist Meeting tonight which I've just remembered I'm moderating .. better do a bit of research methinks












also ... Just want to post yesterday's post again so I remember to read it as I thought it was excellent :-)

"'What kind of future do I envision?', we may ask ourselves. 'What kind of self am I trying to develop? What do I want to accomplish in my life?' We should paint this vision of our lives in our hearts as specifically as possible. This 'painting' becomes the design for our future. The power of the heart enables us to actually execute a wonderful masterpiece in accordance with that design. This is the doctrine of a life-moment possessing three thousands realms.

The more specific and detailed the blueprint we have in our hearts, the better. The point is to continue vividly painting the target we have and to advance toward that goal single-mindedly. Then, at each instant, the reality of our lives will gradually approach the painting that is our aspiration.

Everything depends on what is in our hearts. Heartfelt prayers will definitely be answered. If we decide that something is impossible, then consistent with our minds in thinking so, even things possible will become impossible. On the other hand, if we have the confidence that we can definitely do something, we are already one step closer to achieving it.

In accordance with the principle of a life-moment possessing three thousand realms, pessimistic thoughts or feelings take form, just as they are, in reality, producing negative results. People who have negative thoughts create effects for themselves that perfectly match their thinking."
(Learning From the Gosho by Daisaku Ikeda, p. 128)

Ikeda Quote

Not a lot to report and not a lot of time to post so I thought I;d just post this quote I found today which I thought was pretty good ... Enjoy !!

"'What kind of future do I envision?', we may ask ourselves. 'What kind of self am I trying to develop? What do I want to accomplish in my life?' We should paint this vision of our lives in our hearts as specifically as possible. This 'painting' becomes the design for our future. The power of the heart enables us to actually execute a wonderful masterpiece in accordance with that design. This is the doctrine of a life-moment possessing three thousands realms.

The more specific and detailed the blueprint we have in our hearts, the better. The point is to continue vividly painting the target we have and to advance toward that goal single-mindedly. Then, at each instant, the reality of our lives will gradually approach the painting that is our aspiration.

Everything depends on what is in our hearts. Heartfelt prayers will definitely be answered. If we decide that something is impossible, then consistent with our minds in thinking so, even things possible will become impossible. On the other hand, if we have the confidence that we can definitely do something, we are already one step closer to achieving it.

In accordance with the principle of a life-moment possessing three thousand realms, pessimistic thoughts or feelings take form, just as they are, in reality, producing negative results. People who have negative thoughts create effects for themselves that perfectly match their thinking."
(Learning From the Gosho by Daisaku Ikeda, p. 128)

Another day another poverty

God .. it's like old times .... Work is so scarce at the moment and there's no money coming in ... got to change soon. Kind of know when I've accepted it when I go to the shop to buy chick peas and tin tomatoes to make a curry

Seriously .. obviously a bit worried but funnily enough not that concerned .. I know it will change again .. it did this time last year but could be a bit tricky until it does ... it will sort itself out I' m sure (guess what I'm chanting for )

I suppose one good thing is the change in the weather .. at least I don't feel the need to go out so much and enjoy a coffee in the sun so hopefully Winter will be more work oriented. Also going to start a new business doing web design more geared to the budget market.

On the Buddhist front .. went to Charmain's new place this morning to 're enshrine' her Gohonzon and have a meeting this Friday so need to prepare for that as I'm moderating it.

Other than that ... all pretty quiet really .. hopefully something interesting to report soonish

Daimoku Domei

Well .. I finally got rid of that virus .. nasty little sod ... each time I got rid of it, it came back in a slightly different disguise each time !! Anyway .. gone now.

Bit of an early start this Sunday morning for me as I'd agreed to do Daimoku Domei with an SGI member in Hertfordshire. I'd not heard that term before but basically means chanting at the same time as someone else but in a different location. Anyway, this guy was my 'buddha buddy' on the recent mens course and we each chose 3 things that we wanted to change by January 7th so agreed to chant together at set times to have the determination to make them happen. I guess in a small way, actually getting up at 8.30 on a Sunday morning is a start for me as my third one was to actually do more things and not be so lazy .. so that's a good start .. though I'll probably lie on the sofa and watch a film now I've done lol

On the third point, also started a bit of a flat clean/tidy yesterday which I'll continue in a few minutes ... got most of it done .. but got to sort through a big thick pile of papers that I seem to have accumulated ... big throw out time !!!

And that's about it I think ... maybe a coffee in town later .. but will the sun come out ????

Just a small one please

Had a letter today saying I have the opportunity to receive a Omamori gohnozon (that's a small version of a scroll that we chant to for non buddhists out there) ... for all my hard work !!.... that has to be the first time anyone has said I've worked hard lol. Pretty sure I'll accept as the opportunity doesn't come along very often .... Not sure what the significance for me is but I guess time will tell that.

Another quiet day .. could do with some work ... so if anyone wants a web site doing let me know !

Kinda Kindergarten

Kinda Kindergarten
After a period of being out every night for 8 days buddhism/beer/jazz .. ending with a pretty good study meeting on Friday, I had dreams and visions of a nice quiet peaceful weekend to recover .... WRONG !!!!

I did get a lie in on Saturday morning but then mat Charmain and Simon in town for a coffee and Charmain decided to come round to mine to stay overnight ... wasn't too bad though as I got to watch TV whilst she looked at Pics of Orlando Bloom on my PC whilst singing a song called 'happy pants' !!!

Sunday added another Youth Division member to the contents of my flat .. sorry ... Sokka Kindergarten ... Swamp .. or more correctly, Sidecar Swampy ... actually got a bit of musical talent even if it isn't really my cuppa .. ( http://www.myspace.com/sidecarswampy ) .. so that wasn't a particularly peaceful weekend .. though it was pretty funny I guess ..

But onwards ... I've managed to start my week by getting up just after 8 and doing morning gongyo .. planning to work more as one of my determinations to to avoid being so skint all the time ...

and here's a pic of the old man and the Youth

Existentialism and all that Jazz

Another late start this morning .. I seem to be losing a big chunk of each day to inertia .. and possibly the whisky I drank at last night's Jazz gig which caused me to fall asleep on the sofa when I got home until nearly 3am !!

Whilst I'm a great believer in not running around like a headless chicken and in allowing for leisurely time, I'm also aware that it's a dominant trait of mine and whilst it can be enjoyable, it probably is one of the root causes of my 'sufferings' ie lack of money (don't do enough work) ... So, true to the Buddhist spirit of Honin Myo (starting from this moment), yet again I'm determined to change that aspect of me (though starting work at around 11am might not be the best start to get off to !

Anyway .. to inspire me, whilst having my morning Cuppa, I listened to part of a recording from our HQs Buddhist course last year at Taplow Court with Robert Samuels talking about 'The time is Now' and using a section from President Ikeda's 1998 Peace Proposal where he discusses Berdjaev's view on Existential Time and I've transcribed it below ... because it realy just sums up what I need to sort in my life ... so here goes ....

"In the course of our daily existence, we tend, idly, to allow time to slide by, letting tommorrow come as a mere extension of today without purposeful exertion.

Such days become expanses of inertia and we lose sight of the critically important fact that a fruitful tommorrow comes only after a well lived today."


He also goes on to note that we have to break free of the daily inertia and experience the sense of joy and fulfilment that comes from seizing the moment and fulfilling our inate human mission.
So that's my blog for today .. and now to do some daimoku (chanting) and to paraphrase the above .. kick my ass into gear .. !!


The Morning after the day before

Bit of a late start this morning as I completely overslept .. feeling prety exhausted from the Mens SGI course at the weekend.

Quite an interesting story really as I wasn't too keen on the idea of single sex courses but actually quite enjoyed it and came away feeling inspired despite one of the main speakers basically using management guru 'life style' techniques which really annoyed a lot of people and on the last day he was pretty much sidelined and much more relevant things put in its place which hugely made the course !!

We also had one to one 'buddy' sessions .. another thing I'm not too keen on but I got 'buddied' with Kenji a 59 year old Japanese guy who has practised since he was 11 and was one of the first members in the UK so that was fascinating and inspiring too.

So .. inspired .. yes, and tired too, though true to the laws of cause and effect, I guess drinking heavily and sleeping IN THE BAR probably explains that :-)

Anyway .. made it to the last half hour of the Kosen Rufu meeting this morning which was quite an effort and acheivement and now I'm going to catch up on my missed Neighbours episode and have a great fried brunch .. yummmmmmmmmm

And here's a pic of me and Kenji walking in the grounds running from the storm about to break ... Think i need to abandon the bag .. how gay do I look

Benefit at Last !!!

Benefit .. at last !!!
Ok .. I've decided this myspace ting is going to be mainly, but not exclusively a Buddhist Blog from now on ... partly to hopefully keep me more focussed (or is it an excuse to delay doing gongyo and chanting lol). But I thought I'd post a quick one as I've been chanting specifically for a couple of things .. one of which is to be more secure financially .. a difficult thing to do when you're self employed.

Anyway .. yesterday I sent an invoice to a client for a fraction of £50 and he sent me a cheque which arrived today for £100 with a note saying .. please up invoice to £100 .. How cool is that ... cheers mate :-)

This weekend, I'll be attending my first ever Mens course after practising for knocking on 12 years. I've never been keen on single sex courses (karma karma) .... but this one does fit in with an otherwise quiet and potentially dull weekend so I thought I should give it a shot .. oh and because of some nagging from a Young Womens member ... and in revenge here's a somewhat amusing pic of her

By Popular Demand

I'm back ...... God .. so much nagging lol

What's been happening .. well loads really but can't say as I'm sworn to secrecy and would betray trusts so won't be posting that .. been a bit of a Bodhisattva really I guess !

But today I'm in a SAD mood .... Having only needed 3 points to ensure first division cricket next season, Notts managed only a single point in most possibly the worst display of Cricket I've ever seen and if I'm honest, on that performance alone deserve to go down !! Anyway .. cricket is cricket I guess .. I'll be there next year. There is an extremely small hope we can stay up but it ain't gonna happen .. to think we won the damn thing last year !!! Maybe it's because I forgot to do gongyo this morning ... will do it soon.

Buddha wise been a fairly busy week with a good discussion meeting with three new people there which always makes it more interesting. One of those and her partner came via a stall we had at the Environment Agency Diversity day .. also had others interested and need to get stuff out to them.

Oh well .. cricket season over now so I'll be able to focus more on other things I guess .. like work for example, though of course, it's now Jazz season and went to the Bonington last night to see Gilad Atzmon's new incarnation - artie fishel and the promised band ... funny and second set was good but not the best I've seen him ..... by the way .. I've done the new Jazz Steps site see here .. do you like it ?

Oh well onwards and upwards ... or downwards for Notts ..... tidy up day today ready to really crack on with work on Monday ....

later y'all

Finally

A post .... !!!!

After much nagging I finnally did it ... but not here .... thought I'd give myspace a chance see if anyone actually reads it there so have a look at http://www.myspace.com/ritsos .. Maybe I'll have an SGI myspace too when I get round to it

happy now Si ;-)

Caption time ...

Apologies for lack of recent posting but my mind's been a bit blank recently so to keep you amused until I get round to it .... suggest a caption for the following pic

Mind Your Language

A couple of things recently prompted me to consider our use of language. The first was on one of the podcasts on http://abuddhistpodcast.com/ . Where Jason Jarret was talking about how there is a vacuum on positive philosophy in most people's life, which generally speaking, I agree with. Having brought up in the Punk era, I guess I kind of identified with the nihilism of the times, and certainly as a teenager, it had great appeal .. You know how it goes when you're young .. the whole world's against you isn't it !

But when we've finally cast off our black t shirts and ripped jeans, we have to live in this world and become more and more aware of what is going on outside our own little world, and it sometimes ain't that pretty.

But why can we not become more positive ? I honestly think one problem is around language. Kind of in the same way as they used to say the Devil has all the best tunes, I personally think he nicked the language too.

The problem with a lot of positive language is that it's just .. well ... too nice and fluffy .. words like 'happy', 'wonderful', 'joyous' etc .. doesn't it remind you of Sunday schools or a bunch of niaive folkies sitting around a camp fire ... and most people don't relate to that liberal wishy washy attitude even if we, in most cases, desire the same ends.

So .. I think the time has come to abandon the fluffy language and use more constructive non wishy washy terms ... for example ... isn't it better to be 'fulfilled' rather that 'happy' .. happy is a transient thing where as 'fulfilled' indicates a certain longevity.

Anyway .. this is going to be a shorther blog than I'd intended and I may come back to it again but I got interrupted for the third time by a film location crew who are very likely using my flat for a feature film .. I couldn't believe the pic they took last time !!! Thanksfully, I had a bit of notice this time to get rid of the evidence :-)

(should be a pic here but blogger doesn't seem to want to upload them grrrr)

Dialogue

Last night (before watching Finding Nemo again !), I watched an interesting programme on Channel 4 called 'What Muslims Want' .. which in itself is a pretty dumb title .. kind of like saying what English People want ... which can range from world peace to a luxury house !

It was good though in that John Snow was doing face to face interviews with a wide variety of people of the Muslim faith. It struck me that many of our views of Muslims are based largely on the ones that the media choose to pick to represent Muslims.

One of the best bits for me was when he was interviewing a guy who was a very strict and I guess you could say radical, Muslim who basically quoted the Koran to each question he was asked. When asked a theoretical question which would have needed free will, he really struggled, purely quoting, what often seemed of dubious relevance, from the Koran. It kind of reminded me of a friends mother who ended her arguements with 'it says so in the bible' and you just couldn't get past that !

While he was interviewing him though, another young Muslim who was passing by interrupted them and started pointing out the faults in the 'radical's' argument, pointing out, for example, that the Koran also states that when living in a non muslim country, Muslims should abide by the Laws of the land. It really highlighted the fact that there is no such things as a typical Muslim. Even the fact that they pointed out that young Muslims between 18 and 24 were the ones most likely to agree with actions such as the London Bombers, doesn't really stand up. Speak to English males of thtt age group and they will have the most aggressive views ... It's not about religion but about Testosterone !

The one thing the programme did highlight really for me though, was the way Muslim communities are, often by choice, becoming isolated and this can't be healthy. Unless we integrate more and more, and with other faiths, and respect different viewpoints even if we don't agree with them - we can always continue to talk talk talk .. Once again, it's all about dialogue I guess.

Rant of the Weekend

Last Night I started to watch the film version of 'Till death us do part' .. I'd only intended to watch a couple of minutes but actually got into it and taped the rest which I watched today. At the time, there was a lot of debate about having a racist portrayed on TV, but so many people missed the point that he was in fact a bigoted old fool, albeit at times, maybe, an endearing one.

The thing for me in the film though was the times it was set in i.e. late 60s and early 70s. Now there has been a lot written about these times and often glamourised. I was a bit of a punk in the late seventies and I guess being a nihilistic 'yoof', I took a certain amount of pleasure in the grimness of the times. But watching it last night, it occurred to me that the one thing we definitely seem to have lost in the meantime, is the ability to stand up for ourselves and not be walked all over.

Yes, at times there were serious inconveniences with the three day week, strikes etc, but now, people seem to accept the overwhelming power of corporations .. many of whom have more money than some countries. Sure, there are groups such as anti globalisation groups opposing this but taking the general public as a whole, they seem to meekly accept it. It reminds me of A Brave New World by Aldous Huxley where people were fed Soma to keep them happy and ignorant, and it seems to me that today’s Soma is consumerism and celebrity idolisation.

How does this relate to Buddhism? Well.. isn't it just an extension of 'never seek the gohonzon outside yourself'. In a way this means never seek happiness outside yourself which is exactly what many of us do, as can be seen by the ever rising debt problem in this country. We want and want and want and are never satisfied.

On a personal level, it really bugs me when people moan about the NHS or Public Transport being crap, but when you point out that it needn't be if people paid more tax, they go up in arms, but this is what society is isn't it .. a shared environment which we all have to contribute to as well as taking from. But no, people won't pay another £100 a year or whatever for a decent health system/public transport etc but they'll fork out much more than that for a digital flat screen TV or some other gimmick, which whilst nice, isn't exactly essential.

So ... how are we to stop this planet self destructing if greed overcomes us all ? I guess the answer is that we can't UNLESS we all change our attitudes and priorities and look for happiness within ourselves and not outwardly.

And I really can't remember where Alf Garnett came into this ... but cheers anyway Alf :-)

Enough Already.

It's been a while since my last post and there have been no comments which I presume means that no one is reading it or they are completely bored with Neighbours and County Cricket reports!

Now, these probably won't stop as they are a small part of what I am, but I have taken the decision this morning to change the blog to reflect more, my thoughts on the world around us, influenced, hopefully, by my Buddhist practise. There'll probably be a personal section too if there's anything of interest to report.

Last night I skipped the Buddhist Study meeting as I 'couldnt be bothered' .. now, this pretty much sums me up a lot of the time and I need to change that. Don't get me wrong, sometimes it's good just to kick back and chill out .. we all need that but I definitely have a tendency to almost give up and think 'what's the point' and that needs to change.

It was partly through watching yet again, a dvd I have called Embattled Buddhists which you can view online at http://sgi-usa.org/thesgiusa/community/video/embBud.html . This is an documentary on the Buddhism of Nichiren Daishonin and teh Soka Gakkai which puts it into historic context. I think that for me personally, the one thing that stood out was a quote from the second president Josei Toda who said:

“Never passively accept suffering as your destiny. We alone are responsible for the direction of our own lives. Every person has the right to become happy”.

And I think that's so right .. so many of us just accept our lot and don't challenge it, or if we do, we do so only in our minds and never take action to do anything about it.

So .. that's my pledge today to myself ... to get out of my usual lethargy and stop being the Cold Suffering Bird of Buddhist legend which I've always identified myself with and change things ... So .. if I start getting to enthusiastic about Neighbours again ... kick me !!!

And now for my first more thoughtful quote .. maybe I'll start with something nice and simple .. like .... The Middle East !

The reason I've decided to choose this is fairly obvious, each night on TV, we see the true horror of war in the Lebanon and in Israel, with innocent people being killed, many of them young children. Now, It's not my place to go into the rights and wrongs of the conflict, though obviously there are political issues that do need to be resolved before the whole region becomes involved. Some on the extreme right are even talking of World War Three, though, on their part, this might be wishful thinking !!

Probably the most 'interesting' point in it for me, is that, coming from a left wing background, It's a real battle not to hate Israel for everything it has done in the region, and listening to it's leaders at times coming out with some appalling stuff. It seems to me that it really is about time that Israel lose its victim mentality and look forward to the future. No one is denying that the Holocaust was an awful event and should never be forgotten or repeated, but this is not the reason for the war. Interestingly, in a book I read on Islam by Karan Armstrong, apparently, prior to the Palestinians being evicted from their homeland for the creation of Israel, Jews and Muslims lived together pretty much ok, and much anti Israeli propaganda has been taken from Nazi philosophy as there was no real hatred previous to this.

But anyway, my point is that despite my anger at the Israelis actions, having watched Israeli citizens on the news, it's obvious that their main concern is the protection of their families from Hezbollah rockets. These are the ordinary people, not the military. Some of their views I disagree with though I suspect the media in Israel paints a pretty one sided picture. But the point is that they are saying pretty much what the Lebanese are saying. Both sides want to protect themselves from each other, and in doing so are basically encouraging both the Israeli Army and Hezbollah to continuing the fighting which is having exactly the opposite effect. There may well, hopefully, be a ceasefire soon to allow talks, but unless citizens of each country can break down the us and them mentally, the cause is made for this all to re-occur at some time in the future.

There was a blogger on Newsnight the other day who was saying that, despite the current situation, there was still communication between young Israelis and Lebanese and that basically they want the same things from life as each other, and surely this is the way to look forward. Looking at what we need from life to live a healthy fulfilling life and look at ways to create this. It is only the people in power who stand to benefit from wars in the long run and therefore, it's probably only the ordinary citizen who has the power to put an end to all wars.

Now this isn't a Hippy 'stop all wars now maaaan' thing. It isn't going to happen overnight and most likely not in my generation or even the next, but the important thing is to make a start, however small and all in our own way, whether by thought word or deed - It's all about dialogue .. and very often with people we may not like or feel threatened by but if anything positive can come out of this conflict, let's hope it's some kind of hope for a way forward.

And on that note, after watching Neighbours (only kidding ;-) ...I'm going to try to chant for an hour now then have a listen to the new Buddhist Podcast at http://abuddhistpodcast.com/2006/08/05/a-buddhist-podcast-making-a-great-vow/ .

And on that rather lengthy note, I'm signing off for now.

Just an Update

Haven't posted a while so thought I'd just update, though not a lot has happened really .. it's mainly been a case of Heat, Cricket and Buddhist Meetings. The heat has been good though a couple of days off would suit me ok but getting used to it nicely.

Last couple of Buddhist Meetings have been good too with over 25 at our last discussion meeting .. Thankfully, there was a big garden we could go into for the meeting after the chanting .... it was pretty damn hot in the room.

And the cricket .... Well .. we've reached the final of the 20/20 with a devastating victory over Northants which saw a very surreal run out and Lance Klusener nearly scoring a six with the bat when it slipped form his hand and travelled about 25 yards .. don't see that every day !

Currently playing league leaders Lancashire at home and after winning the toss, we struggled a while and lost a few wickets quickly but a brilliant 150 from David Hussey backed by Mark Ealham gave us 397 in the first innings and then managed to bowl Lancs out for 200. Currently in the second innings we're 94 for 5 which isn't great but is still a lead of 291 on a deteriorating wicket and hopefullyu we can add to that. Should be a victyory for Notts ... though we're quite capable of stuffing up !!

Anyway ... woke early today so instead of slobbing around in bed, I;ve decided to get on with some work and hopefully get down the cricket earlier.

Old Fogie

Was told yesterday that I'm an old fogie by Charmain .. charming .. Kids today huh !!

And that on the same day that I was handed a flyer for some club .. sorry Klub I think it should be. I noticed about 6 years ago that as I walked past these people handing out flyers, that they started to withdraw their flyers .. Think that was the point I realised middle age was approaching ... so it was nice to get one yesterday though buggered if I'll be going :-)

Hot sticky, sweaty and grumpy today so more when I'm in a better mood

phew ... what a scorch ... errr wait .. it's raining !

Just a few lines while I'm waiting for my cuppa to brew .. Bit of a late start today .. bit surprised that I slept in as I felt pretty hot and uncomfortable last night. Mind you, feeling a bit grumpy so I'm guessing it wasn't good sleep.

Been a hot few days this last week. I know that after sitting in it over the weekend at cricket I was getting ready for a cooler day or two and I woke this morning to find it's raining .. Normally, I'd be well pissed off, but it should freshen things up.

Been putting off starting a job which I'm going to crack on with as soon as I've done my late morning gongyo.

Warne Unspun

Well .. a great day of cricket yesterday ... tense and interesting rather than exciting. I honestly expected Notts to lose but hoped for a draw. In the end they nearly actually won the match which would have been a hell of a victory ... sad it wasn't to be but was still a good game.

Been a rushed few days with cricket in the daytime and buddhism or booze in the evening so I'm looking forward to a more relaxed week though I've got 2 more Buddhist Meetings this week but at least I can get some work done in the day and hopefully squeeze a swim or two and coffee in too.

And on that note ... on with the work !

Spin or not to spin

Very brief one as it's the last day of the county match - Notts V Hampshire. Hampshire definitely have the upper hand but it's been a pretty engrossing game really .. the final day leaves Notts needing 360 to win .. do-able but not very likely .. more likely to be a hanging in there kind of match trying not to lose all the wickets before end of play and scratch a draw out of the game, but realistically, with Shane Warme bowling at us ... not looking good.

Been a hectic few days with last night being the only night I've had in for ages and this week is similar .. with 3 Buddhist meetings including the Basics one tonight !!

Anyway .. gongyo now then off to the crickt to frazzle in the sun .... again !!!

There's Always a Crux !

Bit of a late start this morning. I don't know why but I felt really shattered yesterday .. maybe it was the early coffee and subsequent come down but by the time the evening came, I really didn't want to go to the Buddhist Meeting but forced myself. Sometimes you just know you're not going to enjoy it and the first 20 mins of the chanting were dreadful, I couldn't hear the rythm due to a member who chants very strangely an emphasises it wrongly which threw me. All ended up ok though .. so I guess that was just one of those obstacles :)

Received the Monthly Guidance this morning and one bit stood out for me which was a quote by the second president Josei Toda who said "There is always a crux, a key point in every situation. Be sure never to miss it!".

That's quite pertinent to me really. I recognise that point and when it comes, I usually do what I do in times like that ... revert to playing the class fool ... Now there's something to chant about !!

Anyway .. It's a late start today .. needed to sleep in a bit especially as I woke about 5 having some weird dreams about calling the emergency services who told me to stop calling them all the time .. I think the implication was that I'd accidentaly called them on my mobile too many times and they wouldn't respond to me now ... !!! I'm sure there's a message in it somewhere !! Good job I don't analyse dreams eh !! I personally think that dreams are like a release valve for fears and phobias ... get them out your system while you're asleep .. sounds good to me !!

Early Start

Woke quite early today which is good I guess. And making a bit of an earlier start - partly as I've finished series 5 of Buffy DVDs so not watching one of those before getting up (sad !), but also arranged to meet Charmain for coffee in town at 10.30am. Must admit that I moaned about it being so early, then it hit me that most people are actually up and have been in work for a couple of hours by then ... the joys (and pitfalls) of working from home !

Another good night at the cricket last night with Notts winning quite comfortably and getting through to the semi finals of the 20/20 competition for the first time. In theory, have an easy draw too so hopefully will get to the finals day.

Busy few days coming up with our planning meeting tonight (poss followed by a beer), meal tomorrow night and Study on Friday (poss followed by beer), Meal on Saturday night too .... Don't think at the minute that I've anything on Sunday so hope to chill out then and let my liver recover.

Right .. gongyo now ........

Faith, Practise & Study

Just a quick post before I do morning Gongyo (Buddhist Practise) later than usual, but I listened to a podcast last night which was a Buddhist Study by Jason Jarrett which clarified the Faith/Practise/Study aspect which sometimes seems convuluted and complicated. He quoted Something from Daisaku Ikeda which (paraphrased) said:

Faith
Faith is to believe in the Buddha nature of all people, whoever they are

Practise
Practise is to awaken the Buddhahood in ourselves and also in others

Study
Study is to study the philosophy of respecting the lives of all human beings


Thought that was pretty good and to the point ... so on to gongyo .. maybe more later

Forza Italia

Well .. it's all over and Italy win .. yesssssssssssssssssssssssss !!!! ... All in all, not a great game though but Italy probably just about deserved it .. even if only for that stupid head butt by Zidane ,.. !!

Man of the tournament for me was Fabio Cannavaro

and that's my blog for the day .. I'm taking note of todays guidance .. espeically the bit that says
"It all comes down to hard work, to tenacious efforts" .. So that's it .. I'm working hard (ish) today :)

Lazy Sunday Afternoon (and morning)

Well .. many of yesterday's best laid plans didn't come to fruition. Received a text from Emily to meet for coffee at 4pm. Thankfully, experience has taught ne to be prepared for those being a looonnng eveing ans ure enough, we ended up drinking wine until closing time more or less ! One good thing about going drinking with her is that I do at least go to places I probably wouldn't go to .. and you definitely see some sites !! Plenty of stag and hen nights out too !

Anyway .... definitely feeling a bit jaded today so it's going to be an easy one .... about to go back to bed at 11.30am to watch more Buffy DVD with a cuppa, then I'll try to do a min of half hour chanting before having a late brunch in front of TV as there's a decent film on this afternoon ... Harvey.














Then of course it's the World Cup final this evening ... cmon Italy !!!!!!

Back in the City

And posting this mainly as I'm feeling lethargic and putting off going into town. My instinct today is to lounge around the flat, which incidentally, is much cleaner after my cleaning binge .. must keep it this way !. The weather has been so hot which is great but sleeping has been more difficult and it's catching up with me now .. but I will go out shortly .. grab a coffee and listen to my downloaded Buddhist Podcasts while I watch the world go by.

Had a decent day at my Mums though I'm always pleased to get back to Nottingham .. I really find my old home town dull and boring ...

Had a few beers last night too which was good but that may well be why I'm feeling jaded today ... oh well .. nothing much spoiling I guess.

Have made a new 'general' determination to 'open and revive' my life on a daily basis when chanting .. ie get out of the apathy I tend to have so I think I'll chant a bit now then shoot off into town for a while .... I'll post more whene there's actually something to say ... I know you're life is dull Ken, but if you find this interesting .. it's time to worry :-)

And I'm back

Got back late afternoon ... and rushing out for a beer soon ... more coming soon

Clean and Go

Thought I'd post before I do morning gongyo .. just briefly. Last day in Nottingham for a couple of days as I;m going back to Lincolnshire to visit my Mum .. Always pleased to get back to Nottingham though ... it's way too quiet where she lives ... wouldn't be so bad if it was on teh coast or something but just a dull little comuter village .. could never live anywhere like that again !

Anyway .. alst night was a good night sports wise ... after Notts bowled Leicestershire out for 136 they really struggled and were well behind the run rate .. until. ... Mark Ealham came into bat and battered 4 sixes and a 4 off 5 balls .. pretty spectacular to watch .. ! Then came home and watched the 2nd half of Germany v Italy in the World cup .. which ran to extra time with Italy scoring 2 excellent goals in the last minute of extra time .. really pleased as I've got a team to support in the final now .. and if the football is even half as good as that match, it should be a cracker !!

I can't believe I wrote that .. I'm not even especially sporty !!!

Well .. apart from dental visit in a couple of hours time, I'm hoping to clear up a few web jobs today before I go and also intending to have a major clean/throw out .... It's only a small falt and I tend to hord .. it's kind of got to the point where looking at the flat pisses me off .. so it's time for a clean/throw binge :-)

So ... gongyo then get on with it :-)

Where's my slide ??

My Slideshow's gone ... sob ... but Simon's still got his there .. hippy grrrrrr !!

Weird day ... had intended to do loads and it started ok but faded into nothing really. Still, got the critical stuff out the way .. just need to update my web design site ( www.chant4.co.uk ) with new clients and stuff then have a sit in the sun before showering and off to the next 20/20 cricket match. Bit annoying that it clashes with Italy's World Cup match as I fancied watching that .. hope Italy win the cup .... Guess I feel a bit of allegiance to them as I used to watch a lot of Italian Football when it was on Channel 4 .. wish it still was .. wouldn't have to watch so much push and rush football like the Premier league then !!

Hopefully a more interesting day tomorrow ... though there's a filling at the dentists in the morning .. that'll be fun .... NOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And still it boils ...

Another hot day, though thankfully, my flat is reasonably cool which makes work bearable. It does help, mind, being able to nip out for a swim at lunchtime .. keeps me fit AND cools me down.

Fairly pleased with progress today so far .. have managed to keep fairly focussed and am trying to clear up a few bits of work before Thursday as I'm going to visit my mum for a couple of days. Definitely need to get some new work soon though as the current batch is coming to a close. Don't mind a short break but can't afford a long one !

Heading to town now .. going to upgrade my phone .. only because my old one is playing up though ... guess I'll have to figure out how to use the new ones. Just looked at the models I;m thinking of ... all the blurb mentions MP3/Camera/E-mail ... doesn't even mention the phone aspect of it .. !! Modern technology eh !!

Will grab a coffee while I'm there .. looks like we may get a few days of rain so I may as well get the sun while it's here.

Sunday Bloody Hot Sunday

So hot today .. but lovely .. apart from the not sleeping too well bit of course .. Still after yesterdays chanting when I managed to do about 3/4 hour and today I went to Kosen Rufu so have already done an hour ... Don't know why I always struggle to do 10 mins .. always feels so much better after doing more.

Anyway .. one good thing is that England are out of the World Cup so we won't have to watch any more crap football hopefully ... Also won't have to listen to the crap on the news .. latest is that Rooney shouldn't have been sent off becuase it was for the push on Ronaldho ... people seem angry that he wasn't sent off for the stamp on the testicles of the Portugese guy just because the ref didn't SEE it.. Fact is that he DID it though so why people are moaning I;ve no idea ...

Anyway ... our neighbour took his flag down yesterday so that makes the gardens look nicer :-)

Went to the Chill in the Park festival .. for about 10 mins .. pretty dull .. just drunks, drugs and drums ... too many hippies ;-) .. So I headed into town for a long cofee and listened to some more rembetika ... I'm on a mission to get more people to hear that .. so here's a link to a track by Markos Vamvakaris one of the best.

Right .. shower now to cool down, then a cuppa before doing some more chanting, maybe some work and a bit of TV

And again ...

Another win last night by Notts against Yorkshire .. looked a bit shaky at one point but we did it .. can't believe we're actually doing quite well in the 20/20 competition .. most unlike Notts !

Anyway .. just a short post as my day plan has already gone to pot .. probably because I decided to watch that THIRD episode of Buffy before I got out of bed and it's now after mid day and I still haven't done that gongyo that I promised myself I would do ... the intention was to do a good half hour and I still might but I need to tidy and eat and get into town in just over an hour or it won't be worth going as I want to be back in time to watch England get knocked out of the World Cup by Portugal, though if that happens I pity the poor Portugese population of my old home town Boston (lincs not USA) .. Last time Portugal beat us, the local morons rioted burning places down .. it was already a dump before that anyway .. but it did confirm that there had been a nasty rascist streak in a lot of the people there ... It now apparently has the largest Portugese population outside of London .. not bad for a town of 30,000. Also, quite a few East Europeans living there now .... For too long it's been a 'whites only' kind of town .. not any more .. and the local morons hate it .. Come on Portugal :-)

Anyway .. must do Gongyo now and head into town .. I want to sit in the sun a while with a coffee listening to the Rembetika MP3s I've downloaded this morning ...

By the way ... hope you like the slideshow :-)

SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement for July 1
"Nam-myoho-renge-kyo is like the roar of a lion," the Daishonin says (The Major Writings of Nichiren Daishonin, vol. 1, p. 119). It is by chanting powerful daimoku, like a lion's roar, that we can move the Buddhist deities, the protective forces of the universe. The voice is very important-it has profound power. While naturally being careful not to disturb your neighbors, I hope you will endeavor to chant cheerful and powerful daimoku that reaches all the Buddhist deities and Buddhas throughout the 10 directions.

Win Win Win

No .. not some Buddhist philosophy .. just cricket .. though in reality it should, based on the last 3 games, be draw, lose, win ... but that just hasn't got the same ring has it ... !

Went to the first home 20/20 game of the season last night ... and we actually won. Notts have the WORST record of any side in that competition .. let's hope the tide has turned eh !
Had a beer afterwards with my friend Sarah aka Mousey Thatch .. I thought she'd been quiet during the match .. hadn't even done the Mexican wave when it came round .... which is unusual for her .. though not for me .. mr Grumpy.

Anyway .. turns out she'd been dumped by her boyfriend back in New Zealand where she's been on and off for a few years .. don't think I've ever seen her so upset .. so did my amateur counselling thing .. I really should do it professionally .. seem to do quite a bit of it .... !! Anyway .. hopefully she'll be ok .. just needs to stay strong ... There's always a temptation to mention Buddhism at times like that but it does seem like 'preying on the week' so to speak .. maybe later !

OK .. brain dead now ..... but guidance for today below struck a bit of a chord with me !!

SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement for June 29
The important thing is to advance brightly and strive to be victorious at each moment, right where we are; to begin something here and now instead of fretting and worrying over what will happen. This is the starting point for transforming our lives.

It's a fine day ..

It's a fine day .. looking out my window
At the world out there
thinking I should breathe fresh air ..

It's a fine day .. gonna pass me by
unless I get out there
looking in my window at me

It's a fine day .. looking at my old self
watching TV glad I'm out here
looking outside myself

blah blah etc .. bit of a jazz rap kinda thang (very kinda !)

Anyway .. that's the idea but at the moment is 1.15pm and I AM still in here typing instead of getting out there !

Always knew it would be a slow day though and had planned it to be really so no biggie ... Am actually progressing a bit though as I had intended to do 15-20 mins chanting this morning but did around 50 in the end. I don't know why I forget each time but I really start to feel the effects of the chanting kicking in after about 20 mins which is why it's pretty stupid of me not to do more. Someone once said it's like those snow storm things .. you shake them when you start and it takes time for the snow to fall so that everything's clear .... Oh well Honin Myo and all that !

It will be a challenge though as I have now ordered Buffy season 5 along with a cheapo mp3 player .. well about time I got down wid da kids huh :-)

One of the reasons for getting the player was a link sent to me

http://www.mediamasters.co.uk/dg/insp/

which has buddhist podcasts etc .. could be quote useful !

Anyway .... food calls then a bit of a tidy then I'll be out there, looking at the world .. tra la la etc etc .... :-)

mmm what pic should I put here today .. something useful, inspiring or ...........
















SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement for June 24

You must be strong. There is no hope of winning in this chaotic world if you are weak. No matter what others do or say, it is important to develop your ability and then put that ability to use. Strong faith, of course, is the best means for drawing out one's inner strength. You each have a very important mission, and I hope you will awaken to and be proud of that mission.

Life's a Void (if you don't leave the house).

Which is kind of where I've been this week. Been a strange kind of week .. largely dull nothingness punctuated with commas of boredum and irritability. Even the Buddhist practise has taken a bit of a hit this last week .. been a bit on and off.

Probably won't even get out for a beer this week though that's good as I decided at the end of last week that I eat far too much crap and have started on a big 'eat lots of veg (and a little bit of fruit)' campaign .... Luckily enough .. I love me greens me :-) ... So far so good .. even starting to eat breakfast which previously had been something like a round of toast at mid day ... probably not a good idea.

Probably a sad thing to confess but I was inspired by the weetabix ad .. and it's actually really nice .. weetabix, yoghurt, fruit (usually sultanas .. I'm lazy) all topped with some honey .... how bleeding healthy is that eh !!!

Funny where inspiration comes from isn't it .... Also decided today to kick start the buddhist practise and make some changes in my life .. and when did I decide that ? I'd love to say it was whilst doing copious chanting but it wasn't .. the revelation hit me during my second Buffy episode of the morning .. thinking .. I need to get a life !!! So that's it Honin Myo (Starting from Now) ... and it starts with a hair cut in a short while .. bit of a tidy up of those tufty stray hairs on top of my balding head (ok it's already bald .. I need to hang on to something :-) ...

I did however receive an e-mail from Amazon today .. I have a £5 that has to be spent before the 26th so looks like Buffy series 5 is en route :-)

















SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement for June 23
Jesse Owens, who won four gold medals at the 1936 Berlin Olympics, later remarked that one's inner life is the true Olympics. Life itself is an Olympics where we strive each day to better own personal records.

And you thought I'd gone ....

Thought it was time that I finally posted again .. also because I'm feeling weary and putting off doing some work ... it's that Monday morning feeling especially when my loud strangely voiced neighbour decided to have a LOUD conversation with someone right outside my bedroom window at 7am !!

So, as you can tell, there's an element of grumpiness about today so I'll be avoiding people where possible :-)

So what's happened since last Wednesday ?

Well, firstly cricket .... It looked for quite a while as though Notts were about to lose again but a slow century from David Hussey, his first half decent score of the season, and a quick 50 plus from Graeme Swann gave us a lead of 80 runs going into the second innings. Not enough to avoid us having to bat again ..... you'd think !!

I was umming about leaving to watch the England game but decided to stay .. and what a good choice ... Notts bowled them all out for 46 runs .. Charlie Shreck taking 8 of the wickets .. quite spectacular though it doesn't say much about Middlesex's chances of staying up ! Anyway, the win has scraped us just above the relegation zone so let's hope it kick starts the season a bit !

Other stuff since Wednesday .. MMMMM not a deal really ... went out on Saturday and Sunday nights .. fairly subdued though and not a lot to report. I'll edit if I remember anything worthwhile to post !




























Charlie Shreck - The Peter Crouch of cricket !

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrain !!!!!!!!!!

Jeeze am I pissed off with the weather .... All last week when there was no cricket (with the exception of Sunday), the sun came out and was really sticky and humid. Yesterday at the start of a 4 day match I decided to work in the morning then pop down in teh afternoon ... Got there and watched about an hour when .......















Yep ... it pissed down ALL afternoon ....... Mind you .. Notts could well lose again despite playing a poor side so might well actually be glad in the end.

Don't know what's the matter with Notts right now. Same team as last year and this year they haven't won a game and could well get relegated if they don't start to turn things around ... suspect their confidence is shot ... Still .. at least we'll have a local derby against Derby and Leicester next year :-)

Other than that .. work, dull, world cup etc etc .... Argentina the best side I've seen so far.

Groooan

God .. I'm completely fading in this heat ... maybe it's a gradual wearing down from waking early but I really can't be arsed to do a sodding thing. Did manage to work most of the morning but there's just a lack of oxygen about ... It has rained hard though so maybe that will freshen things up ... !!!

Oh well .. back to the sofa !

Engerland

Ok .. so today is going to be soooo lazy ! I had intended to sleep in this morning but woke a little before 8am. My leg feels really sore too which puzzled me but then I remembered watching some of the Isle of Wight festival on TV and recerting back to my drumming days .. on my legs .. ouch !!

So .. the plan today is that I've laid in bed watching an old Buffy DVD .. must order season 4 soon! .. Gonna tidy the flat in a few mins then have a walk to fetch teh paper etc then settle down to the England match this afternoon .. no idea for the evening .. probably more TV .... Suspect I'll feel pretty tired as I was drinking last night .. went outside the Playhouse as it was warm .. though was a bit chilly at the end ... nice to get outside though !

Not a lot ...

That's pretty much what has happened since my last blog .. I've basically been working with a bit of a swim every now and then. At least they do seem to be sorting the pool out .. well .. after poisoning people anyway !

Think I've finally caught up on a lot of little bits and bobs work wise so now I need to get on with a new designwhich I'm a bit late starting ... Need some inspiration so heading into town now armed with some design books and will have a coffee in the sun (I hope !).

Got a meeting with Jazz Steps early this evening .. part of which is the new site I;m working on:

http://chant4.co.uk/jazzsteps_2006/ - front

http://www.chant4.co.uk/jazzsteps_2006/inner.html - sample inner page


feel free to slag it off ... I'll ignore you anyway ;-)

later

Gweener than Gween

Yesterday was a green day, though thankfully not in the David Ike kind of way ... well, at least I didn't see any lizards (though there were some strange people indeed :-).

Quite a nice chilled out day really and pretty sunny apart from a shower ... my head is pretty red though this morning !

Had quite a bit of interest on the stall and 6 people who already want to come to buddhist meetings so that's pretty good.

Anyway .. too early to use my brain so here's some pretty (and not so pretty) pics from the day.



























































At Last !!!

I've been feeling pretty shattered and drained this last week .. continuingly fighting tiredness. It's all a bit sad that this probably stemmed from drinking last week end ... A whole week to recover !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, this morning, I finally managed to sleep in and didn't wake until 10am ... felt really shattered initially, but after a semi doze I felt in that land of mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmwarm bed ... finally forced myself out to make a cuppa and watched a DVD of Le Boucher which was a freeebie with the independent ... pretty decent film .. so finally got up about 12.30 .. just in time to do a few bits before I settle down to watch teh footie on TV> Typical though, the sun comes out and I decide to stay in .. oh well !!

MMMMmmm that's better

Feeling a bit more relaxed today .. maybe I should lay off the Greek Coffee and espresso ... Didn't hit any orange robe Buddhists yesterday (as if I ever would :-) ... Actually only got there for an hour and pleased that I did. It was so dead - think I saw about 2 members of the public in total and the others were Buddhists .. and not many of them either. Actually made you realise that, despite being one of the lesser well known in this countries, we probably have a lot more helpers. There was one guy on all day from the Friends of the Western Buddhist Order where as we had several different people throughout the day ... I guess the other Buddhists were nice but they did appear and sound like they'd eaten nothing but brown rice and lentils for the last few years lol.

Anyway .. going for a swim now and hopefully crack on with some more work this afternoon. Am out for a beer tonight .. hopefully it will be warm enough to sit outside ... most likely the Playhouse bar.

So far .. so bad

Oooooh .. I'm in a real ratty mood today ..... did some weights, had a swim and walked to and from town yesterday ... and that, combined with the after effects of the weekend, seemed to really tire me big time.

So .. this morning, I was looking forward to a nice lie in and a late start, only to be woken by the postie bringing me some Buddhist stuff to display on the stall our Buddhist Group are having at the Green Festival this coming Sunday ... Couldn't get back to sleep either so got up and did some work which just wasn't going well at all ... THEN parcel force delivered a load of business cards here which were supposed to be delivered to Kent, so I had to sort that one out .... and now I've just had one of those damn annoying automated phone calls ... grrrrrrr

So that's it pretty much for today I think .... not going to be a productive day so I'm going to have lunch and watch Neighbours now, have a quick soak in the bath then head off to the Council House to help out at our stall for the Buddhist Day there ... Looking forward to a good argument with other Buddhist groups .... especially if they're wearing orange and have changed their name from Wayne to reverend Garanga or something ...... Tolerant ... me ???? Yeah right .. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :)

And after all is said and done ..................

Well .. that's the Bank Hols over with and my plan to work hard over it simply didn't materialise .. In fact, I've spent a fair chunk of it simply recovering !

All was good ... until Saturday night when I went to a neighbour's Wedding Reception in the evening with some friends. It was a strange one really ... even though we weren't late .. it felt like the end of a party ALL night ... The evening started with a quick beer in town followed by a couple of bottles of ok-ish real ale ... bit strong though ... but then I made the (un)wise decision to hit the whisky .. which I did all night and then went, with a friend, to a bar in town until 2 or 3 am .. and for the first time in absolutely ages, I simply can't remember coming home ... !!! I did wake up at 8am on the sofa and went to bed where I stayed until early afternoon ... so most of that day and the following were spent feeling a bit grog.

Last night though, I was starting to feel better and went to the Mayfair again (yum !) ... Took it pretty easy with the wine/beer/whisky though and went to bed about 1am .. only to wake up again at 5am .. and that was that .. I couldn't get back to sleep so I started work at about 6.30am and have actually stuck at it pretty solid for most of the day .. though I'm about to have a tea break now .. Also need to ring the shop at Taplow Court to get some Buddhist books for the stall we're having at the Green Festival in the Arboretum this coming Sunday ... got my head burnt bad last time ... probably get it wet this !!

Very Quickly

As I have to get ready to go to a wedding reception now ... first one I think I've been to in probably 15 years .. it's bizarre really .. All my friend both male and female never seem to get married .. maybe I'm a bad influence lol. This one is a neighbour though but could be a decent night ... watch da blog tomorrow !

SGI President Ikeda's Daily Encouragement for May 27
Forward! Always forward! This is a basic spirit of Buddhism. Nichiren Daishonin's teaching is the Buddhism of true cause. We live with our gaze fixed on the future, not hung up on the past. To advance eternally-this is the essence of life and the essence of what it means to be a practitioner of the Daishonin's Buddhism.

Yesterday was a surprise

Because it was actually fairly warm and Sunny ... but pissing it down again today .. great huh !

Started to write again yesterday for the first time in ages. I've been asking people on a web designers forum to post some pics and then writing a short story inspired by them. Just need to type it up now and maybe set up a new blog for it .. or maybe even create a 'proper' site ... haven't decided yet.

Had to smile this morning .. Read the Guidance for today which says:

In Buddhism, we either win or lose-there is no middle ground. Now and in the future, let us advance, determined to win in every sphere of our lives. By winning in our lives, we are advancing kosen-rufu; and by advancing kosen-rufu, we win in our lives.

But then I opened up the new issue of the Art of Living (monthly Buddhist Mag) which came this morning and saw the following cartoon .. which is soooo me :-)





















Ok .. I've typed up the short story now and have posted it below. I've already done a paragraph for part 2 so it looks like it might be an ongoing one ... watch this space :-)

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Kate (pt 1)

Kate looked at the kitchen clock again. It certainly wasn’t unusual for him to be late. The first ten years or so of their marriage had been more or less what she had hoped for; loving, secure and with a sense of order. But, since Paul had decided to give up his job as a stockbroker and get out of the rat race, things hadn’t been the same for her. Sure, she had supported his decision, partly as she could see that the stress of work was beginning to affect his health, but also, she was, after all, his wife wasn’t she!

Initially, she had been happy to move from their London home with all the noise and social problems that city life brings and she had instantly fallen in love with the beautiful cottage in this rural part of Cornwall and loved the proximity of the sea and the fresh air it offered.

She looked at the clock again. This wasn’t like him she thought. It wasn’t unusual for him to be late. Since their move, he had certainly become more relaxed about his time keeping and she was happy to go along with that to an extent, but he was never late on the nights that they drove to Newquay to visit their favourite restaurant.

She put on her coat. The sea mist was starting to roll in as she locked the door behind her and started to walk to the Quay side. She figured that his Parish Council meeting must have finished by now, and, on kissing her goodbye when he left, he had said that he might go to the Quay to do a spot of fishing, something he had begun to spend more and more time doing.

The walk seemed particularly lonely this evening; it was far from unusual not to see anyone on this narrow pathway. Occasionally, maybe a couple of ramblers, but the locals were more likely to drive into the town.

As she approached his usual spot, she could see his tackle box on the edge of the Quay. Increasing her pace, her heart beating faster. Only in her wildest fears had she not expected him to be here. With an air of panic, she looked around, hoping perhaps, that he might be behind her trying to surprise her, or maybe there was a pub or a shop nearby where he might have gone. Yes, perhaps that was it – maybe he had gone for a quick pint and was on his way home right now with his catch. She fumbled in her pocket for her mobile phone and rang home but there was no reply .. and no local pub or shop either!

An uneasy calm washed over her as she sat on the damp quayside, her legs dangling as she looked out to sea, the waves lapping softly against the Quay walls, as, with an air of resignation, she took out her mobile again and dialled the number of the local Coast Guard.

Oooh look at me

Bit bleary this morning though I didn't drink much at all really though I did stay up watching TV in the early hours. NIce to see Sarah again after such a while .. even if it was kiwi kiwi kiwi and Nottingham's 'orrible ... expected that though.

Went to the pool today but it's been closed for nearly a week as they mixed some chemicals and a few people ended up on hospital so they're waiting for clearance from Health and Safety to re-open .. Had a to go in the gym and pump a few weights instead .. and look what happened !!!

Work work work work DRINK !!!

Woke up quite perky this morning .. sun streaming in the window and all is well with the world .... for an hour .. then it rained !

Basically a work day as I've got a lot on .. Even my afternoon coffee break involved a work meeting .... Anyway .. going out very soon for a beer so that will be nice and relaxing .. eveni if I do have to listen to Sarah moaning about how shit this country is compared to New Zealand where she's been for the last several months .. Oh well .. it will be fun annoying her about it :-)

Here's an old pic of her .. drunk .... again :-) .. Oh .. and she does have 2 arms lol

I will survive ....... won't I ????

In somewhat grumpy mode this morning .. just wasn't tired last night so stayed up late then went to bed even though I didn't want to .. took ages to fall asleep and then woke early this morning .. grrrrrrr

Thought I'd best post now anyway as I'm heading out for a swim .. slightly apprehensive as there has been a big turnover in staff. Now that wouldn't bother ne normally at all, but having read in the local paper that not long after I had left on Friday, they had to evacuate the building because one of the employees had mixed Chlorine and Acid together and a few people had to be taken to hospital with breathing problems from the fumes !!! Not getting in the pool unless there are others in there with their skin still on :O